The Buoyancy of Travel

It has been almost five years since I took the sky and crossed space and time. I don't count a small jaunt to a luxury resort in Mexico  and I discount any journeys  constrained by my own national borders. I am including the kind of travel that makes you so weary without sleep you feel high and completely disconnected from time and space. It had been half a decade since I engaged in this type of travel - since I stepped off of a plane from Sana'a Yemen and arrived back in Virginia. I carried with me a taste of honey perfume that I have used so sparingly that I still enjoy a small touch of it now and again. It brings me right back into the hustle of Sana'a and the bustle of men and little children taking inconspicuous glimpses of the Western tourist in the black turtle neck, standing enamored in the perfumery. 

This time, Ethiopia. Since I moved to the small farm in rural Pennsylvania, a place like Ethiopia seemed only another planet. I'd sewn myself into the fields and the trees and the grass and the enormous weight of care that comes with owning a farm and two horses. I'd dedicated myself, my entire being to that farm; its rolling hills, its long gravel driveway, the gift of its breeze, and the destitution of its February days. My days had become a swirl of  maintaining a regular job, and a well-kept home. I had always innately been tied at the soul to my horses, and this was no different. I had these magical creatures there with me, every day, and I owed them, and some ways sacrificed what I always knew was the beautiful unique lightness - buoyancy - of world travel.

Once those large international jets lift to the sky, you are helpless. You are helpless to your daily procedure, to getting distracted from your path, to veering here and there trying to keep up with life's dust. You are given a seat and besides a small walk down the aisle to stretch your cramping limbs, that is where you stay, floating buoyantly above the earthly pull of gravity. As I slept and woke fitfully during my the first leg of my flight from Baltimore to the UK, I did feel buoyant. It was the most buoyant I had felt in a very long time, maybe since I packed the small vile of honey perfume in my suitcase before taking to Sana'a's sky.

For 12 hours, I was stowed away in London. Few people knew the time and space I was occupying, and there was something magical about that too - occupying a space where nothing can be demanded of you, where no one has too many assumptions about you, yet; where you haven't yet tasted the air before a heavy rain or watched the sun as it folds in and out of the clouds, or been trapped in the corners of disappointment and despair. During my short hiatus in London, I took a trip on the tube to Covent Garden, a place that was a little too upscale for my comfort, yet alive enough to awaken in me a yearning to go back and spend more time.

Again, up, up and away, another night I spent buoyantly floating up there in the sky. This leg of the flight was entirely more lively than the last. Ethiopia had infused the walls of that big jet. The smell of the food, the aroma of the women as they sifted by in their soft white dresses and colorful head scarves and the little children, sounds which might have otherwise aggravated me trapped in some room or small restaurant, placated me.

Like many of us spoiled NGO workers are some times, I am now in my ironically nice, comfortable hotel room. Like them all before, these hotels have big walls and gates that only give us glimpses of the real city behind our walls. The tall buildings of Addis Ababa are calling out to me. I can see them, there, but they are still out of reach. I floated buoyantly in the hotel pool behind those walls and could have been up there in the sky again. I could have be anywhere, an entirely different person, as the water gifted me another moment of silence and solace that had been absent for far too long. Water, travel, flying through the sky heals.

I do good work, we all try to, but these places we travel to, these moments, and many of the people we meet along the way undoubtedly give us far, far more than they could possibly take from us. Ethiopia, thank you for taking me in, if only for a few days. I already know I will take you with me when I am back in the sky and inevitably when I land at the hooves of my horses.